Tuesday, June 29, 2004
conversations with sam
s: mommy, ang sakit ng paa ko. bakit masakit yung paa ko?
m : kasi kinagat ka ng langgam
s : eh bakit ako kinagat ng langgam
m: eh kasi dirty yung feet mo
s : eh bakit dirty yung feet ko?
m: hindi kasi hindi ka naka slippers
s : eh bakit kinagat
m : kasi akala nya yung dirt sa paa mo, food, kaya kinagat
s : eh bakit masakit?
sam has been asking so much questions lately. from why ants
bite her feet to why i am her mommy. it amazes me how she never
runs out of questions that we oftentimes end up with her
first question.
and for some reason, i look forward to each question she'll ask
and treat it as some sort of exercise... reasoning exercise.
it's like our own version of a conversation.
time flies fast these days that soon i'll be having "girly"
conversations with her and then "career" conversations and then
"women" conversations. i know we'll have lots to talk about
and that our conversations will never end that there will never
be enough time to talk about everything we want to talk about.
i'd be happy for that day to come. but right now, i'm content
with "our conversations".
s: mommy? bakit kita mommy?
m : =)
babyburn at 5:08 PM
Friday, June 25, 2004
it's friday i'm in love (with)
friday is definitely the best day in the week. for some reason, i wear my better clothes on a friday. when bestfriend was here, friday is "our day". now, though, bestfriend is not here, friday is still special...i loooove friday because...... i can stay up late tonight
... i get to wake up late tomorrow
... people are more free spirited and you can feel it
... i can relax at work (i'm a believer of don't-start-anything-you-can't-finish-today-anyway)
... and for crying out loud, it's the last day at the office
yeah, i've had BETTER fridays than today. before, fridays meant looong and faaar lunches with my absi friends...it meant survivor and american idol...it meant movies and the fort and g4 and mega with bestfriend... it meant fun fun fun...
things sure have changed but a friday will always be a friday to me. it kind of...restarts or ends the cycle (depends on how you look at it). life has been a routine and friday is my refresher. it reminds me that however difficult the week maybe, a friday will always come and save my sanity.
so what else can i say? thank God it's FRIDAY!
babyburn at 12:11 PM
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
that feeling
i sooo miss that feeling . it has been a year since i had it and it changed my life. hehehe. no seriously, it's like falling in love the first time. it makes you feel excited. when you think of it you'll experience how it is to sleep smiling and wake up with the same smile. it's amazing. really amazing. it brightens your morning and completes your day. it stirs up all kinds of emotions... love, envy, anger, lust. it occupies your mind and takes all your worries away.haaaay....i sooo miss hana yori dango.
babyburn at 4:38 PM
Friday, June 18, 2004
jologs
I'm sooo jologs lately that i sometimes amuse myself.
last night, after a two hour shopping. note: for me shopping doesn't
necessary mean ending up with stuff you bought most of the time it
means attempting to buy stuff and (for some reason) ending buying
nothing at all.
anyway, i felt really exhausted and hungry, that when i passed
by Hansarap at the MRT station, the 10-peso lugaw looked like
the most delectable lugaw i have ever seen.
i hurriedly lined up the turo-turo and ordered that tempting lugaw plus
tokwa't baboy with free gulaman for 16 bucks. after getting my food,
i sat beside an old woman who looked as hungry and as harassed as i am.
sweating, i devoured on the hot food on our small red table. pouring all the
tokwa't baboy on the cup and overfilling it, i wanted to laugh at myself
for what the sight that i was. i don't remember finishing a cup of
hot lugaw that fast in my entire life.
after swallowing the last spoonful of lugaw and my
mouth barely wiped, i rushed to the trains and participated in the everyday
mrt wrestlemania. whew. as i saw my reflection at the train's glass walls
i couldn't help but smile. i looked pathetic but i had a great time.
babyburn at 11:13 AM
Thursday, June 17, 2004
another day
whew! it's finally friday tomorrow!! my favorite day of the week. today has been...let's just say...a lot better than the last 3 days.first, because i finally got my last pay from my former employer and second, work has been more manageable. i really miss life in absi. as another absi alumnae said, it is in absi where you can earn money the easiest way. i miss the royal jamaican patty (my fave is beef jerky) i used to buy almost every morning. i miss working while watching cable...i mean...watching while working...hehe..i miss the loooong lunches with the loooong coffee breaks...that was really fun...and i definitely miss the people. i think, the best thing in absi is the people, sadly, a lot of them is now gone already...which, in more ways than one, prompted me to follow suit. but then, as i read from another blog, you can only grow through change. so here i am, on a totally different show playing a totally different role. honestly, not once did i ponder if i made the right decision and not once did i realize that i am missing a lot. but slowly, i realize how i have changed and became better in such short time.so what happened there? i was actually planning to write something refreshing because of the good news about the money and here i am going all mushy and reflective...this is what i hate about blogging...it brings out the stuff that shouldn't be out in the first place.
babyburn at 4:58 PM
Monday, June 14, 2004
a day in a life of a working mom
 | today i'm missing a big part of sam's life. i'm missing her first day in school. it pains me like hell to leave for the office when sam in about to enter a new stage in her very young life. i will always wonder, how it would be like. to dress her up , prepare her things, send her to school and watch how she is with other kids. will she say her name when asked? will she fight with her seatmate? will she like her baon? how many stars will she get? here i am in some office in makati, waiting for the 5th hour. now i would have to content myself with stories of how her first day in school was and traces of star on her hand. argh. life sucks big time. |
babyburn at 4:41 PM
Thursday, June 10, 2004
missing my bestfriend
it has been exactly 27 days, 6 hours and 17 minutes since arizona took my bestfriend away from me. here's just but a few reasons why things are not what they used to be : i miss the endless talks about anything and nothing. i miss how we analyze and dissect every single movie we watch. i miss the three of us. i miss his smell. i miss his hair. i miss how he carries his dirty old lunch bag. i miss our fights. i miss greenbelt and the fort (and go nuts donuts) and up. i miss how he sings maroon 5 songs as if they're his own. i miss watching initial-d with him and sam. i miss the happy tree friends. i miss holding his hand while he's driving. i miss feeding him while he's driving. i miss mcdo drive thru in nlex. i miss dreaming with him. i miss how i was when i'm with him. i miss his shoulders. i miss him. sigh.babyburn at 11:08 AM