Thursday, January 13, 2005

awkward nga eh!

alas syete na. galing ka ng opis. pagod ka na. antok. gutom.

maswerteng nakasakay ka kaagad sa bus sa edsa.

naghahanap ka ng mauupuan. biglang may makikita kang mukhang parang...pamilyar. iniisip mo kung sino.

hindi mo makita ang buo nyang mukha dahil nakadungaw sya sa bintana o kaya'y nagtetext.

ah! alam mo na. ang dati mong opismeyt na si joan. si joan na hindi mo naman kaaway pero hindi mo rin ka-close. simpleng opismeyt. ganun lang.

nakita mong nag-iisa sya. walang katabi. tatabi ka ba? shempre hinde.

awkward e.

nang haharap na sya sa kinatatayuan mo, biglang bibilis ang lakad mo.
kunwaring nakatingin sa malayo. sa dulong upuan. kunwari busy. kunwari hindi mo
sya nakita.

awkward e.

mas nanaisin mo pang matulog na lang kesa makipagkwentuhan tungkol sa mga dating kakilala o mga dating tsismis kaya. sarap yatang matulog sa aircon bus. mas gugustuhin mo pang ngang bumili at magkukot ng limang pisong mani kesa makipagkamustahan.

mahirap na. baka hindi pa sya nagbabayad. nagmahal pa naman ang pamasahe ngayon.

at isa pa... awkward nga e.

...

halos pitong taon mo na silang hindi nakikita. ganun na kasi katagal mula ng gumradweyt kayo. at ngayon reunion nyo na.

isa-isa na silang nagdatingan sa napagkasunduang lugar.

beso beso. kamustahan.

kanya kanyang "O musta!?". hindi mo nga alam kung declarative
sentence ba yun o interrogative kasi wala namang sumasagot at kung tutuusin hindi mo rin alam kung sino talaga ang tinatanong kung nagtatanong man.

lahat nakangiti. kodakan na sa mga may dalang kamera.

bigla kang tinanong ng dati mong sitmeyt.
"o jonalyn kamusta ka na? san ka na ngayon? dun ka pa rin ba sa dati?"

dali dali kang naghanap ng sagot sa hawak mong bottomless iced, pinagmumuni-munihan kung sasabihin mong naretrench ka.

"ah ok lang ako...oo dun pa rin sa... yan na pala yung inorder natin! ayos!!"

laking pasamat mo. hindi dahil gutom ka na at dumating na ang masarap na pagkain kundi himalang nakaiwas ka sa milyon dalar kwestion/s.

awkward e.

nakaisip ka ng strategy. ikaw na lang ang babangka sa kwentuhan. ikaw na lang ang magtatanong. likas na gusto naman ng tao na maging bida di ba? kunwari sobrang namiss mo sila kaya nagtanong ka ng nagtanong. ultimong mga anak ng aso nila kinamusta mo kung ilan na.

hay sa wakas. dessert. medyo napagod ka na rin sa kakatanong mo sa kung sino sino. nang bigla kang nilapitan ka ng dati mong crush. si uly. si ulysses na kamukha ni rudolf yaptinchay.

"huy jonalyn! kamusta ka na? san ka na ngayon? dun ka pa rin ba sa dati"

nak ng! awkward nga eh...

bat ganun? pagnakikita mo si ex. o yung ex ni ex. o yung dati mong pinagkakautangan na hindi mo matandaan kung nabayaran mo nga. o yung hiniraman mo ng libro na hindi mo pa naisosoli. pati yung dati mong binibilhan ng prepaid na hindi mo na binibilhan ngayon kasi mahal pala sa kanya ng kinse pesos. lalo na yung tyahin mong madalas kang tanungin kung may boyfriend ka na. o yung dati mong titser sa grade 5 na pinagalitan ka dahil parati ka nakadungaw sa bintana sa oras ng klase. kahit yung bestpren mo dati na hindi mo na bestpren ngayon. o yung dati mong groupmyet na boss mo na ngayon. bakit kapag nakikita mo sila otomatik na kukunin mo yung celphone mo kahit wala namang message at titingnan mo lang yung address book mo? o kaya'y biglang may maiisipan kang hanapin sa bag mo kahit na alam mo naman na wala. haaay... bat ganun???

ang awkward!!! pati nga spelling ng awkward awkward eh!

hirap ng bored

babyburn at 4:36 PM

3comments

Monday, January 10, 2005

three things

since i want to blog but i can't think of anything sensible to write about...papatulan ko na to...

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1 Berni/Burn/Burns
2 Didit/Iding (only for my family)
3 Baby (only for jay) and Mommy (only for Sam)

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1 Xena - The Dancing Queen (hahaha!)
2 fxboy from hell
3 natasha/hannah

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1 wise (well, most of the time at saka sa mga non-work related...hehehe)
2 sweet (palagay ko)
3 grace under pressure/chaos

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1 tabain (shit!)
2 have high expectations
3 my eyebrows or lack thereof

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1 being alone
2 ants, termites.... i hate it when they're really small and really many
3 when a loved one is sick and i don't know what to do

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1 cleanser/toner/moisturizer combo
2 kumot
3 prayer

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1 blue dangling earrings from jay
2 black "pajama" slacks
3 my new red and peach leather bracelet

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/ARTISTS AT PRESENT:
1 River Maya
2 Bamboo
3 Stevie Wonder

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1 Table for Two by RiverMaya
2 I Don't Want To Wait in Vain by Bamboo
3 ---i'm just so musically deprived right now i can't fill the list up (what a loser!) ---


THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1 take up a creative/writing course
2 save up for an investment or a business
3 read more books and write more blogs

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1 Laughter
2 Conversations
3 Self Discovery

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE: (figure out which is which)
1 i once swept a guy off his feet literally
2 i really love kids
3 i don't use deodorant

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1 height
2 naive/innocent looks
3 he's got be clean

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1 ride a bike
2 wake up from an alarm clock's alarm
3 wait for long

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1 blogging (ofcourse!)
2 reading
3 doing whatever with sam and jay

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1 go home
2 attend jim parades' creativity seminar with jay
3 have liposuction (hahaha! such vanity!)

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1 writing
2 teaching
3 be an entrepreneur

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1 Japan
2 France
3 London

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1 travel around the world or to places i want to go to at least
2 to make a difference in other people's lives (through helping or through my writing)
3 be in jay's arms while hugging sam

have a great week everyone!

babyburn at 6:32 PM

0comments

Thursday, January 06, 2005

she's back!

i have been missing out on updating my blog big time. i guess i'm just too
busy reading everybody else's yearender reflections, new year's resolutions
and what-have-yous or i am still in the state of denial that the christmas
season really IS over. come on, it can't really be over just like that??
i mean, really...

well actually , i have been planning to write a year roundup of my own but
i refuse to be reflective this time. you know the feeling of going to a video
rental store and deciding whether to rent The Cold Mountain or White Chicks?
let's just say i choose White Chicks this time for the simple reason that
i don't want to think. similarly, i don't want to waste my brain cells pondering
on things i did and failed to do and questions i've answered and those i haven't.
'04 is over and should be done with. i'm just greatful that i have a brand new year
to start over with. i think i'd just face this new year head on ...
sabi nga ni chona mae,"Wherever!!"

so anyway, instead of chewing over my past year and be all pensive, i'll just post
a few of sam's words of wisdom...hehehe. i'm seriously thinking of making a special
section for her. here ' goes...

i once chanced on catching "lovers in paris" in the tube, it would be my first time to
see it and i was quite intrigued as to why people are glued. as i watched,
me : (watching) sino yang babaeng yan?
sam : mommy, alam mo galit si martin sa kanya kasi si carlo ang nasa puso nya
me : ah...ganun ba...

while passing thru the aurora blvd. katipunan intersection, we saw a billboard showing
Jesus and Mama Mary...
sam : mommy mag-asawa si jesus saka si mama mary. (in an as-a-matter-of-factly tone)
me : huh? hindi! mommy ni jesus si mama mary
sam : hindi! mag-asawa sila.
don't worry minutes after ay natanggap din nya ang katotohanan...hehehe

at ang pinaka winner sa lahat...

jay, me and sam are dining at kfc. being the best "tagapapak" that i am, i was savoring
the chicken down to the bones...
me : (concentrating on my chicken (bones))
sam : (with her questioning eyes) mommy...*pause*....dog ka ba?

hanggang sa muli mga katoto...

babyburn at 8:39 AM

2comments